It starts with Haley standing by the pool looking into it and imagining jumping into it in her clothes then Jamie comes out and says "Mama i made my own breakfast and cleaned up" and she replies "What do you want a gold star?" he is clearly upset by her shut down, where is his mum wou used to be so proud of him when he did stuff?
Her next appareance is her sitting on the floor against her burnt piano on the phone and she says the following piece of dialogue...
It all just seems so fake. This idea that, good things happen to good people, and theres magic in the world, and the meek and righteous will inherit. There's too many good people that suffer for something like that to be true. There are too many prayers that get unanswered. Everyday we ignore how completely broken this world is. And we tell ourselves "it's all gonna be okay, you're gonna be okay," but it's not okay. And once you know that, there's no going back. There's no magic in the world. At least not today there isn't.
(That speech is something that really speaks volumes for me, i think what she says is true, there is no going back once you know that things are not going to be ok and I think that is part of why you are down sometimes)
Then it cuts to her back out by the pool looking down into the water while she is still going through that bit of dialogue then Nathan goes and sees her sitting in the middle of an empty field and walks over to join his broken wife and suggests they go out for a drive as Quinn is looking after Jamie for the day.
In the car Nathan tries to get Haley to speak to him about something she loves, or even something she hates (they are in a traffic jam) and she just shuts down and gets out the car saying i hate traffic, he gets out and says you know what your right it's a lovely day lets just walk.
Her next scene is her back on the phone again and she says the following bit of dialogue
I was thinking about the finality of it all – how somebody can leave your world in the blink of an eye and be gone forever. It’s too enormous to think about. It’s too hard. And then you’re just supposed to go on, right, like just deal with it, I mean really you’re only supposed to be sad for as long as the flowers last and then, oh, time to go back to telling jokes and reminiscing about the old days. I don’t have any jokes to tell.As a matter in fact I hope I never hear another joke as long as I live. And the old days are just that, they're old days, that are .. gone.
and then back to Nathan and Haley who have walked to where Haley first tutored him and he quotes Haley to her "You can just score your touchdowns Mr. Bigshot cause math don't care and neitherdo I" while he is holding a cracker jack (the same thing where he got her bracelet on their first tutor session but she shoots him down and says "It won't change anything, whatever prize you find in there won't fix me" to which he replies "Why not? It fixed me"
Again she is on the phone in the next scene she is in and she says this bit of dialogue
I hate to tell myself to just be happy. But I don’t feel happy. And when I try to change it, when I try to remember what being happy felt like, I can’t. I don’t feel joy. I don’t feel inspired. I feel numb.
Following that Brooke takes Haley to her clothes shop where her mother (Brooke's mum - clearly) is doing some work and she says hello to Haley who then snaps back "Last time i saw you, you was ruining my sister's gallery opening" (Victoria had been kissing Brooke's new designer Alexander behind the curtains at the gallery when the curtain fell down due to Skills hitting Mouth for sleeping with his gf and clearly the whole room saw their displays of affection for eachother - bearing in mind too that Alexander is about 20 something)
Victoria then replies and says the following piece of dialog (NOTE: This is something i think will help you if you change it to fit your situation)
This obviously touches a spot with Haley and i think this is where she wakes up a bit. Back home Nathan is going through some things and he comes accross a phone bill he looks through them with a concearned look on his face and he takes them straight to Quinn and asks where Lydia's phone is.
It is then clear that the phone calls Haley has been making through out the episode have been to Lydia, Haley and Quin play them back and we hear her admit to shouting at Jamie even though he never deserved it but she couldn't help shouting and both Nathan and Jamie deserve better than she is giving them right now (Jamie then leaves a special star on her bed with a drawing he did for her that reads "Your our treasure" (him and Quinn had been on a treasure hunt all day) the episode then ends with the quote again that things are not ok and once you know that there is no going back with Haley again by the pool this time at night looking into the water but this time she jumps in fully clothed while the quote is going round again.
Mom, it’s me. I know you’re gone. And you’re not coming back, but I was just thinking maybe somehow I could see you again or be able to talk to you or hear your voice. I snapped at Jamie today again, and he didn’t deserve it, and I don’t know why I did it, I just did. He deserves better than who I am right now and so does Nathan. Every day we ignore how truly broken this world truly is and we tell ourselves it’s all going to be okay."You're gonna be okay."But it’s not okay.I know that now.
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